Blending the light and shadow had never come as naturally as this. I was considering to do a ritual for a full moon at the time but my mind dropped into a space and allowed myself to prepare a different kind of spell.
Writing and preparing what the intention was, it was time to erase the control of the shadow side and replace it with more positive habits/blending. I even pulled a tarot card closer towards the end of my preparation. And long came out the 4 of Swords. And what a beautiful depiction of this power I was unleashing.
The image itself on the 4 of Swords speaks of a bleeding. A mental drainage to allow my body to overflow with a more assured sense of self and embracing the positivity and momentum that I can give to myself in order to succeed.
Now, I was the most serious, if not the most undulating, in my incantation and preparation. The key ingredient was focus and mental balance. Writing down both positive and negative aspects on separate parchment papers that were stitched together and made a pouch, I filled both with separate yet similar ingredients:
Negative Contained: Christmas tree branch, ashes (smudge sticks & palo Santo), cinnamon, chili powder, chamomile mix, red string, Pluto oil, Flower petals (mix altar flowers), black ribbon (for tying).
Positive Contained: Christmas tree branch, ashes (smudge sticks & palo Santo), cinnamon, lavender, roses (mix), hemp (for tying), Flower petals (mix altar flowers, Florida Water.
After, I etched the same words from my pouches to the bodies of my white and black candles respectively.
I included some glyphs of my Deities that I felt would work well in conjunction. Then tied them to their pouches and placed them inside jars, which I cleansed and added some of their own ingredients to. And the final touch was the tarot card. One that I pulled thinking about what was the energy of this spell at the base of my jars. Detoxifying these mindsets so I move forward and not look back.
Afterwards, especially making the space fire safety approved, I lit both candles and let my magick do the work.
Burning to the core and leaving nothing left, I found my black candle and pouch catching fire 3 times.
My white one stayed immaculate.
Like, I even had Florida Water in it and it didn't combust (which honestly happens to me a lot).
I took this as a sign from the gods above that this is working and it's by time that this maneuver is in place. And to this day, I am seeing the gradual effects. Making it feel like Temperance is truly taking control and allowing me to manifest and transform.
Of course I still do go through bouts of depression but it doesn't hold me in its clutches. Its like I've seen the way out of these feelings and am learning more how to breathe through them. To regain control and allow myself to take a step back. Outside of the feeling. Outside the mind frame.
With this new perspective, I've begun to see my focus, change and how I've better leaned into my story with a highlight on what's good, perfect and so sacred to my very being that I don't stop finding the joy in my adventures and spontaneity. Though my life constantly unravels into uncertainty and fate, I'm turning into the awe inspired acolyte that's finding the vision and purpose on what's becoming so crystal clear. I am achieving and mastering everything I am setting out to believe and work hard in. My desire to pursue my most authentic self, beliefs and dreams is all about finding the survivor, warrior, and beauty that is still me. And I'm so glad I can finally write these words without cowering or hiding behind shades of doubt. Because I am awesome, experiencing life, love and am so open to change at all times.
That it's an absolute miracle to just be free.
Here is a full list of ingredients that I used to make this spell. Take a whack at what you can creat by blending your light and shadow self. Move with the flow and add greater, if not make it simpler in your enjoyment.
Ingredients:
Christmas tree branch
ashes
cinnamon
chili powder
lavender
roses
chamomile mix
red string
Two white parchment bags
red/ purple pen
tarot deck
white/black candle
2 jars
2 boxes
black ribbon
hemp
pluto oil
florida water
Flower petals
Bloodstone
Amythest
Opalite pendulum
Chakra clear Quartz Pendulum
I didn't get to mention the crystals that I used as well. I intuitively placed them in front of the jars that their energies would work well with and set the intention: clear and relax moving forward. My experience has been increasing my beliefs and practice into self and feeling just how strong and capable I am. I feel supported in this universe though the answers are rarely straightforward or obvious. This past year of healing has certainly pushed me to move forward and propel myself into the earth. Which is something I desperately need these days
I also recommend using a plant or memento piece of something that was important to you or carries a strong memory/emotion. That packs a punch.
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